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This is just a random entry:

Celebrities that i find either pretty, sweet, hot or sexy:

West : Jessica Simpson, Jessica Alba, Elisha Cuthbert, Carmen Electra, Eva Longoria, Scarlett Johansson, Keira Knightley, Kristin Kreuk, Emma Watson, Natalie Glebova...
East : Lee Hyori, Nia Ramadhani, Mariana Renata, Titi Kamal, Dian Sastrowardoyo...

T for Truth

The dragon flew..
leaving his beautiful rider behind..

Then, he felt something oblivious behind this mask he wears, a mask of loneliness..
He felt an era of darkness, deep behind his throat, deep behind the coronary arteries..
It is numbing, it is killing..

He then realises that
there is no life without dancing
no love without meetings
and no darkness without loneliness

In him, it is not only flesh and bone that live behind his mask..
Behind his mask, there is himself, his family, his friends..
Behind his mask, there is you, you, and even you..
Behind his mask, there is all of us..
Behind his mask, there is...love...And love, is always timeproof...

Now, he shall tell the truth..No more tricks, no more lies, only the truth..And the truth is that he misses her beauty..
Every single inch of him longs for her eyes, her lips, her touch, her love..Every single inch of him shall perish in the darkness of its loneliness..every inch..except one..an inch that is in me, in you, in all of us..

The mountain, ocean and Great Wall

Wandering the mountain, the ocean, the Great Wall, and the stories behind them..

A mountain is always tall..
Unless, it would be called a hill..
An ocean is always never ending..
Unless, it would be called a pool..
The Great Wall is always great due to its effort and blood spent..
Unless, it would not be called 'great'..
An 'always' is always an 'always'..Tall remains tall, never ending remains never ending, and great remains great..

Now..
Imagine a being, living on the Moon, who is occupied with an utterly different angle
What is a mountain to him?
What is an ocean to him?
What is the Great Wall to him?
To him, a mountain is a negligible chunk, an ocean is as small as a palm's reach, and the Great Wall is simply a line on a wasteland..
An 'always' is not an 'always' anymore..Things change, things morph..

Missing someone..is like being that someone on the Moon..
Everything becomes so far away, everything is out of reach..
Everything is memories, everything is missing..
Everything is imaginary, everything is illusion..
Everything is numbing, everything is nothing..
But, stories were not lost..They were kept in those places well..They are there for people to discover..They are there to be refound..
They are there to be reborn..

A quote from Five People You Meet In Heaven:
"Some said the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking that we are alone.."
Oh well, then i must say that i am wasting my time now..I miss her like hell..And i cant help it but to let this lonely heart wander around the mountain, the ocean, the Great Wall, and the stories behind them...

HELL

I've been dancing for three years..And so far, i have been improving myself, considerably good enough to be a decent dancer in western dance..Yet, a sense of inferiority and incompetentcy rushed in my blood as i attended the sessions by my new Danceworks choreographer..I was not chosen for the first team, and i didnt even know why i was not chosen when i felt that i had tried my best during the audition..Since then, i did not enjoy dance sessions as much as before..I could feel the pressure and the overwhelming stare of him that pierced right through my eye..His eyes keep on reminding me that i am not good enough as a dancer..I do not deserve any important role in the competition..And this became worse as i started to hate dancing, not hate hate, but hate dislike..I hate listening to the songs that he used, those are like the songs of hell for me..
HELL : the place i deserve