20

Today, i turned 20..And the number of ppl who wished me is my personal best record. i must say i'm deeply grateful to have such great friends around me. But i find one thing really odd. Of all the friends i used to have, there are those that have never met me for 4 or more years and still wished me birthday. But there is one, used to be my western-dance cca mate, used to be my njc friend, used to be special to each other, that i find quite strange in a sense. I mean it wont make my day if she wishes me cos obviously, there is nothing wrong with still acknowledging your friend's birthday. It's not like i will start thinking of funny things like oh mi god, she still cares for me, bla3 all that shit. I mean, all those that were close to me in western dance still remembered me. and they still acknowledged me. except for this one. It's not like i die die wish her to say some words to me, it's just..odd..like what have we become now?are we even friends?isnt there nothing wrong with being friends again after a couple breaks up or something?I know i might have disgusted her, i might have made her feel super sick of me, but looking at the whole picture, and judging the past as the whole picture, shouldn't we have grown up and start to recognize each other as friends again?
I do respect her relationship. and i do understand that she wants to be loyal and devoted as much as she could. but, whatever man, i am running out of time to think of the way i think when i was 19. if she wants the 'friend' status to be there just for decoration sake, then so be it. i have a lot of other friends to appreciate than just her alone. and i am so not gonna let one isolated incident, one isolated person that no longer appreciates my existence in this world,to ruin my day.
I am twenty now, i am not gonna live the way i lived my nineteen years old..