2 weeks..do or die

2 weeks to promos..And i just realised something that i have never realized before..2 things... Firstly, i realize that i tend to score worse in an exam or test if i did badly for it..Somehow, when i am doing the paper, there is this tendency of me saying to myself "you wont be able to do it"...As a result, i could not transfer my knowledge to the paper..I grow nervous and lose my consciousness in answering questions..It just goes blank and blank..Totally blank...and that is what happens to my GP, where it gets worse instead of better...And i wont want to know what my other subjects' grades are destined for....
Another thing that i realized is that i have been missing someone so far..Someone big, standing tall behind me..Someone who always supports me behind in my homeland, together with my ancestors and caring of my family..Now that i realized i shed tears more than when He was around, i start to cherish His presence even more...yeah, my God..And i guess it is a bit late for me to turn back to Him now..But, still, i miss those days when i am in my homeland...I need those people behind me..And there are none now....none...
2 weeks...will i survive?