solved dilemma and scholarship

Hey, finally post an entry after few months of dormancy. Hmm…There are lots of things worth mentioning since I have not been writing anything for so long, haha. Firstly, my common test. It was utterly disastrous as I got marks that were not acceptable at all as a scholar. Throughout my whole life, I have not been achieving such scores in my studies. And this showed that I am downgrading. I am turning out lousier than the Singaporeans. And this is not what I wanted. During the interview for my scholarship, I promised to the interviewer that if they are much smarter than me, I would work super hard and never give up, until I become better than them. So, this means that I shall start doing that now or my scholarship will be terminated soon, which is the least thing I would want to happen to me.
4th August 2006. That was the day when everything in doubt was clarified; that was when everything became certain. Had my happiest moment one week before that though (29th July), and it was truly an unforgettable and joyful night. The night where every single angel in the world came down and spread the love to people. Hahahaha….
Hmph, it was quite ironic actually. Because i remembered just a few days before all that happened, it was actually the first and only time she hurt me so far. I thought she gave me zero hope by telling me straight in front of my face that she was reserved for someone else, someone who got a better look than me. And when she said that, all I could do was to put up a fake smile on my face… til I reached my hostel. It was one horrendous moment. The night where every single demon in the world came down to Earth and spread its darkness. And naturally, with me knowing her history, I actually swore to defy my will. I swore I would not do anything to step up during Asean Dance. I swore I would rather let her wait for another night when she had waited for three years. I swore I would not touch her anymore…But…I kept to none of my promises. My bad,hahahaha....And thank God, I did not. Because if I did, everything would be as good as over.
Blah, anyway, promos coming in about 4 weeks time, time for me to revise and study hard. Time for me to prove myself. Time to work..And stay out of dance for a moment…